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So this is not a secret and its prob random to be putting this here but i need some one to answer , So , my whole family have been recommending me and encouraging me to seek therapy , i Dont know why , its prob because I’ve been suffering from depression and anxiety , but now I’m way better , but they’ve been telling me to go to therapy , i don’t know if it’s because of depression , or because I’m kinda homicidal , Don’t get me wrong i don’t think I’m mentally ill , I'm not a psychopath or anything I actually love my family , its just that I'm a little cold , i really want to change that , cause it kinda makes me sad , that I’m so cold , I’m actually crying rn haha , I'm not proud of this , but i killed a lot of pets , i used to hurt my siblings a lot , but i don’t see it as wrong even though i know its wrong i just don’t feel like its wrong , I’ve been suffering from lack of empathy since i was born , but I’ve been raised with love and care so it doesn’t make any sense , I’ve been sick since i was 8 with an unknown illnessI have hernia and tumors in my stomach and esophagus , i throw up a lot of blood , and have a lot of problems in my stomach and esophagus , i had 12 endoscopies , 4 surgeries and a lot of medical tests , and they still cant explain my medical condition , I’ve been to USA for medical treatment for 4 years , but they gave up on me since they cant understand whats wrong with me , especially because the blood i threw isn’t mixed with acid or mucus , so its not from the stomach or the nose , so my parents think its the cause of my unusual behavior , please don’t make fun of me cause I’m actually really depressed and tired , cause my classmates always make fun of me saying I’m pretending and asking for attention , how could they say such thing while I’m throwing up blood and passing out almost every day , and I'm just asking for help and it hurts me so much , to be sick without knowing whats wrong with you , so I'm mentally unstable , its not like i cry when I'm depressed i just stare into the ceiling and stop thinking about anything , I’ve been losing a lot of weight since i have zero appetite because of the anti depressant pills i take , its called cipralex , The animals i hurt was killed brutally , it makes me even more hurt , i don’t feel guilty which makes me confused even more
Going to therapy might be better for your mental health and could give you a diagnosis since it seems you already have a lot of things going on in your life. If you do go I wish you the best! 1 reply
woman, don't get me wrong but therapy sounds like a fantastic idea. The psychiatrist signing your prescription can't help you any further. They're there to fix the faulty chemistry in your brain, not to teach you how to deal with your emotions.
The esophagus thing is a riot and a half, I don't know where to start. There are a very easily diagnose...... 1 reply
i feel really bad for you!! you really don’t deserve this!! i really suggest going to therapy, it might help you, just try your best, im cheering for you .!!
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I suggest that you seek therapy not by a psychiatrist but a psychologist about your condition cuz the physical problems you’re facing right now are not related to a physiological disease but a psychological one. You might be suffering from a somatic disorder but I can’t ascertain that. Just please seek a therapist before it’s too late. I hope...... 1 reply
I'm no therapist or psychologist but maybe the reason you're less expressive, aren't as affected by things other people might relatively react strongly to, or can't process certain events is because it's a coping mechanism. Considering all that you're already going through (might even be considered traumatic because it's taking a toll on you physic...... reply
here’s some of the pic of when i was 8 and some of the recent blood that i threw up , I cant share recent pics of myself since im muslim and i wear hijab ╥﹏╥
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I think therapy could help increase your mental health, but please never force yourself too much, do only what you feel comfortable.
Also, anyone who makes fun of you or says that you're doing this for attention are stupid, never listen to them, nothing is your fault and you don't deserve it.
I really hope everything will be okay for you ٩(๑�...... 1 reply
Find the right person to listen just pour it all out it’s not wrong to think like this because I’ve thought like this too so just find the right person that u know u can trust and that ur comfortable with and talk to them. 1 reply
Sooo this is just my opinion but I don't think you're mentally ill or anything, just that you're less expressive than others and that's perfectly fine if you want to change it but you really shouldn't force yourself. And the fact you don't feel remorse for hurting your pets MIGHT be because humans don't really see animals as equals??? Like killing...... 2 reply
