A 19years old horny bloomer struggling btw desire and God

so what I was trying to say I'm 19 and I experienced masturbation for the first time months ago, still a virgin ( huhu what a surprise right !) bcz i was raised in a kind of religious and strict environment I feel ashamed about touching myself so tell me is it normal to feel horny and excited like every night or I'm just a piece of pervert trash and I should seek help srsly? and how to manage to not touch myself though...