really hate this

im the eldest daughter with 2 siblings, yesterday my parents go out themselves saying “you three cant go with us! only us can go out”. well i kind of understand bc there’s a fcking covid. in the end, my parents go out at 3 pm.

at 5 pm, my youngest brother (6 y.o) cry bc he’s hungry. my sister calls my mom, then my mom told her to go buy eggs but only she is allowed to go, not my brother. yea ofc my brother cried begging me to go to store. bc i don’t liked loud noise, so i allowed him. and us three go to store, i mean the store is not even far like 100m.

after buy some eggs, my brother said he wants to drink some milk first and told my sister to cook the egg later, my sister like “oh okay”. suddenly my sister remember that she have some homework that must submitted at 8 pm (must record herself for poems). so she told my brother to don’t disturb and follow her into the bedroom. fyi, im at the living room. my brother cried again and im totally pissed. i tried to hold my anger but my brother keep disturbing my sister such as going in and out bedroom, screaming, and blablabla.

so i scold him and say “dont u hear her? dont disturb her, she’s doing a homework! dont u have any ears? used them and cut them if u cant hear anything. and if u dont want to play that pc, i’ll throw that pc!” well, his computer is turned on 24/7 and its really annoying when he’s playing game with full volume.

unfortunately, my parents came back when he’s still crying. when my father step into living room, he saw my brother crying. as u thought yep, he scold to me “what kind of sister are you? cant even take care your brother! its a very simple thing to do and u cant even do that?” i cant accept that words and i talk back “u even dunno whats happening here, always spoiled him when he’s the one who go wrong”. lol i was slapped by him. i actually cant accept what happened yesterday, but im scared to got chased out by my father. ya so i keep silent all the time.

he always spoiled my siblings, even when there’s only me and my sister back then. he always spoiled the younger ones. i and my sister have 3 years difference. so, i always got blamed for something even when i dont do something wrong.

i’ll never scold my brother in the first place if he listened to me. before i scold him, i alr told him several times (5 times or so) to don’t do anything unnecessary.

well that’s it, my poor little life ┑(￣Д ￣)┍