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Why am I so awkward?
I am literally the living ball of awkwardness. No matter where I go or what situation I am in I can't help but feel this uneasiness sprouting within me.
For example, I am just walking in the mall or buying some food in the canteen (tons of peeps can be found in these places) I get totally conscious about myself. Thoughts such as: "I probably look weird and awkward right now so I should hurry up." Or "I should act normal". Another example is when a lot of people are paying attention to me or let's say public speaking. I can't stand their stares and then i end up doing and saying something ridiculous.
I sometimes feel uncomfortable when I am talking to a person (close friends included). I have trouble in coming up with new topics to talk about so I always end up just listening to them and smile (it depends on the situation tho lol)
Does this mean I have a social anxiety? Or am I just an awkward kid?
As others have said you might be showing signs of social anxiety. I can relate to you because I'm that way too. It's hard for me to socialise, period (Except with people I feel actual comfortable with wich are only close friends and some friends and family.), and I really hate ''social'' situations in general. Be it a party, hangout with a big grou...... reply