I am this close to killing myself "- -"

ok so this isn't really a clickbait or stuff like that i just really feel like shit and all. Y'all ever had this wierd feeling that everytime you do something, the responses you get are just like "cool, whatever i don't care" and you just want some feedback but you don't want to tell those people you're doing what you did because you want to feel something, atleast? like, you feel like you're guilt tripping a bunch of people but in reality you're not? idk maybe that's just me. I don't actually want to kill myself but a mental breakdown will probably happen. Like idk, i'm waisting my time trying to interract with people on this site but for the most part it's just a bunch of 13 y/o fujoshis that scream "oppar" to every asian guy they meet...ok ok that was a joke but in all seriousness, i feel like shit. Kinda wish this place wasn't as toxic as twitter tbh. and i felt good about the things i wrote but no one seems to care. It gives me so much self-hatred, idk if you understand ( you probably don't).
I feel like i'm guilt tripping rn, oh gosh oh gosh.














































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































I'm not gonna put a another chapter to get opinions because i've figured out how you guys react to people ACTUALLY asking you opinions. so just enjoy this beautiful copy paste of a flower. idk how it's gonna turn out so if it's completely ruined, all i've got to say is "mood":
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