I don't think I've ever not felt sad. I'm so used to it, that it's become my neutral emotion. Most people's neutral emotion is 'chill' or 'happy' or just nothing at all, but I automatically go to sadness. At this point I don't feel it anymore. It's scary how unbothered I am, I genuinely think there's something wrong with me. That's why I try my best to hang out with people and play and joke around, to keep my mind off my emotions, I'm not an extrovert by choice. other than that I'm physically fine :)
