I don't think I've ever not felt sad. I'm so used to it, that it's become my neutral emotion. Most people's neutral emotion is 'chill' or 'happy' or just nothing at all, but I automatically go to sadness. At this point I don't feel it anymore. It's scary how unbothered I am, I genuinely think there's something wrong with me. That's why I try my be...... reply
this is random but today is my cousin's birthday (June 21st) he's turning 4 today! I want to show him this so he can see other people wishing him a happy birthday!!
anyways, I love the people on this site so I hope you guys have a great day, ilysm
BRO I WAS READING BLIND PLAY AND MY OLDER SISTER SNATCHES MY LAPTOP TO DO SOMETHING BUT IT'S SMUT SO I WAS ALL DEFENSIVE AND TRYING TO GET IT BACK AND SHE WAS LIKE 'WHY ARE YOU BEING SO AGGRESSIVE ARE YOU HIDING SOMETHING' AND ME STILL TRYING TO GET IT BACK IS ALL ANGRY AND SHE TAKES IT FROM ME AND STARTS READING CHAPTER 18 OF BLIND PLAY AND SHE FINISHES IT WITH A STRAIGHT FACE AND TURNS TO ME 'SO YOU ALWAYS READ SEX MANGAS' (I talk about animes and mangas a lot) AND BRO SHE'S THREATENING TO TELL MY MUM WHO WILL ABSOLUTELY KILL ME BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T TRUST ME (not that I've given her any reason not to trust me) AHHH BRO I'M GENUINELY CRYING OH MY GOD THIS IS GOING TO BE MY LAST DAY ON EARTH.
please tell me I'm not the only one literally so unmotivated for school and classes right??? like, I have like 5 assignments due tomorrow and I keep procrastinating or doing literally EVERYTHING except my work. I'm not even lazy or anything, I just can't find the motivation to do it, and it's like, I do my shit. I get good grades and stuff, but this is not it for me. Honestly it all started with the covid stuff keeping people away from school for so long, and it all went down from there.
it's not really my worst nightmare, I've had worst, but it's my most recent one and the only one I can remember. So I was walking home from school as usual, and there was a car driving by, and a pacifier (idk why tf it was a pacifier but ok ig) fell out of the car right at my feet, so I picked it up and brought it back to the guy in the car (since the car stopped near me when the pacifier fell out), it was dumb to not be suspicious, but I live in a really nice neighborhood and everyone is super sweet and helpful to each other so I forgot all about stranger danger and gave it back to the guy, only for him to kidnap me. Then, it was some kind of really weird time skip and I woke up at my house and I thought it was a dream but then the guy came back and locked me in my room and was like choking me, and then I woke up gasping really hard. I've been doing online classes, and the days I do go to school, I have my mom pick me up because I have this really weird gut feeling that somethings going to happen when I walk home and I've watched too many reddit gut feeling videos to NOT be suspicious (something similar actually happened before (it wasn't a dream), I was walking home and this lady offered me and my friend some candy, we said yes and when she went to get it, we ran for our lives, we have to pass her house everytime we walk home, but thankfully she hasn't been out recently) so I've been kinda scared to walk home. I haven't told anyone in my family because I know they're going to overreact, and its not like im a psychic or anything, it could just be a normal nightmare. Sorry for the long rant.
