I first met him in 6th grade. We were just friends and I would talk and have fun with him. Little by little I would go to him every time it was nutrition but I thought it was normal. By 7th grade people said I liked him but I didn’t believe that until second semester. I came face to face with my feelings and decided to keep them. This was the first time I ever truly realized I had a crush. My friends would push me to him and I would say “I’m so sorry, she just pushed me...” he would just say sure and then go with his freinds. Thinking about it now I was really annoying. And more so since I wasn’t even sure what exactly I was feeling and I fumbled with my words when I was with him. By 8th grade I realized I was in love. Or that’s what I think it was. Each time he texted me i would be so happy and by face would heat up. After much thinking and the support of my friends (even though they didn’t like him) I confessed by the end of 8th grade. I confessed by text message because I was too scared to do it in person. I told him that I liked him and that it was fine if he didn’t feel the same but I just wanted to let him know. He said ew. I said why and he never answered. I was sad. I couldn’t even cry I just felt empty. He texted me a pic with his dog 1 month later after saying that. I went with the flow but confessed a week later again and told him kind of the same things. He said he didn’t believe me and I said I’m telling the truth and that’s how i decided that I needed to give up. I didn’t text him until 3 months ago when he asked me what Hs I was going to. I told him then we got our schedules and talked and then he texted me saying he was sad that no one liked him. Texting him while in the midst of trying to get over him was hard enough and I just had to say it one last time but he just avoided it. I’ve been reflecting a lot. I was to optimistic. I’m now seriously getting over him. I haven’t texted him for a while now and I’m moving on. I’m glad he let me experience this though. Because now I’ll make sure I’m cautious. I won’t let myself experience this again. I really loved him. He was my first love and although I wish it could of worked out maybe it’s better like this. It’s just one of life’s lessons and I still need to face other hardships besides love like grades. I just wanted to let this out, and thank you for taking your time to read this.
"......Because now I’ll make sure I’m cautious. I won’t let myself experience this again. I really loved him. He was my first love and although I wish it could of worked out maybe it’s better like this...." But you WERE, in fact, being cautious. Give yourself more credit. This wasn't a rushed decision. You guys knew each other for years. You planned this, put your heart into it, and even went as far as to expect different outcomes.
His... lackluster (I mean shitty) response is not yoir fault. There's nothing you can do to control how a person reacts. You were honest and polite, that's the best you can aspire to and you already nailed it!
You guys are young. Young boys are.. well.. a mess. He might have learned something about this experience too and we can only hope it makes him kinder. Don't regret what you did, be proud.
ughh I got emotional and lost my train of thought, sorry. I wish you the best, don't you EVER lose the drive and courage to try to get what you want. You really don't need to think of ways to be more cautious Women confessing to their crushes is the coolest thing ever and boys who don't like it need to grow some balls.
jdsfhfkjdskjfdsklsd but that was really mean of your crush to just say ew,,...,. you deserve better so don't chase after him even though it hurts Ik how u feel :~| !! Hope you get better
omggg I relate so much fkjbfdgjhfgkasdk like the guy I got close to was like my emo buddy since we both felt similar feelings about always feeling empty inside and we got close then people started shipping us and at first I was like nahh but then I ended up confessing to him and we didn't date because well we both weren't into that but we were so close and had special moments together. When the holidays came we just stopped texting and then he just flats out ignores me now and it really pisses me off because he never even gave an actual reason and saying that I fell in love w/ him sounds melodramatic but it was more than puppy love. But because of him I realize that maybe majority of guys are actually scum no exception lolol but then I hate that I still catch myself staring at him and find him attractive,, I guess I am kinda boy crazy which I hate about myself but I can't help it ugh
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"......Because now I’ll make sure I’m cautious. I won’t let myself experience this again. I really loved him. He was my first love and although I wish it could of worked out maybe it’s better like this...."
But you WERE, in fact, being cautious. Give yourself more credit. This wasn't a rushed decision. You guys knew each other for years. You planned this, put your heart into it, and even went as far as to expect different outcomes.
His... lackluster (I mean shitty) response is not yoir fault. There's nothing you can do to control how a person reacts. You were honest and polite, that's the best you can aspire to and you already nailed it!
You guys are young. Young boys are.. well.. a mess. He might have learned something about this experience too and we can only hope it makes him kinder. Don't regret what you did, be proud.
ughh I got emotional and lost my train of thought, sorry. I wish you the best, don't you EVER lose the drive and courage to try to get what you want. You really don't need to think of ways to be more cautious Women confessing to their crushes is the coolest thing ever and boys who don't like it need to grow some balls.
jdsfhfkjdskjfdsklsd but that was really mean of your crush to just say ew,,...,. you deserve better so don't chase after him even though it hurts Ik how u feel :~| !! Hope you get better
omggg I relate so much fkjbfdgjhfgkasdk like the guy I got close to was like my emo buddy since we both felt similar feelings about always feeling empty inside and we got close then people started shipping us and at first I was like nahh but then I ended up confessing to him and we didn't date because well we both weren't into that but we were so close and had special moments together. When the holidays came we just stopped texting and then he just flats out ignores me now and it really pisses me off because he never even gave an actual reason and saying that I fell in love w/ him sounds melodramatic but it was more than puppy love. But because of him I realize that maybe majority of guys are actually scum no exception lolol but then I hate that I still catch myself staring at him and find him attractive,, I guess I am kinda boy crazy which I hate about myself but I can't help it ugh
Wow I totally get you. I also get angry at myself when I sometimes think about him and my mantra is “he’s not worth it”. Works most of the time