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Mental breakdown time :D
Its all my fault i'm a dumb bitch because if i just paid attention in class then maybe i wouldn't have such low grades Its all my fault that i procastinate because its just so simple, just stand up and study and do work but i can't even do that Its all my fault that i have a short attention span because its not as if i didn't have a choice, i could simply pay attention. Boom. Problem solved bit guess what i did? I didn't pay attention therefor its my fault It all makes sense This is why i became a worthless human being Just a waste of air I just became the daughter of some parents i'm not even worthy of Some other smart kid should've been their child not me... Maybe if i just kms then maybe that might lead them to get a new kid. A better, smarter kid Its not as if they would care I'm just another mouth to feed. Another annoyance. Another waste of space. Another waste of money
Well anyway that's what i came here to ask you, what's the fastest and most painless way to die?
Honestly this isn't the best place to vent ngl, but I'm hella sure no one out here is gonna give you suicide advices, and I sure as hell hope they don't either.
Rather than venting here, consult a therapist or psychologist or maybe ask a trusted teacher or your close family for proper help and advice.
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i can't really help you here because i generally don't know. I was depressed once and it was the worse most of what you said is what i thought of myself. but i was able to get through it. And i hope the same goes for you. Even if i wanted to hurt myself i just couldn't bring myself. but i bet ur amazing and i hope that me just saying this will make...... reply
I don't recommend pills. Because I am still suffering from my suicide attempt from swallowing a bunch of pills and it's been several years now. I actually don't recommend you kill yourself in general because there's always that slight chance you're going to survive (and when you survive oh man that's a cluster fuck of emotions)
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as someone who has tried taking pills- i don't recommend at all. i had the worst stomach pain EVER- it felt like someone was repeatedly stabbing me in the guts and i ended up being admitted to hospital (i puked all over myself multiple times as well).
also the absolute worst thing you could possibly do to your parents would be to kill yourself.
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the pressure is real, i feel for you.
but wouldn't you rather put effort into your studies? a short attention span is curable. my niece had the same issue so she made a rigid schedule and limits her own phone time. its a self enforced thing so she feels in control of herself and it actually works. the pride you will feel in yourself is amazing 1 reply
Here coming from a random online stranger. In no way I want to act like a therapist or anything, but your writing reminded me of an instance I wrote on my diary or journal you can say, it was quite similar:
"Out of all the million smartass sperms why did I win the race and why the hell was that the last time I won at something not worth being pro...... 1 reply
There's no such thing as painless dude, yeah quick pain there's that. Its to stab urself in the guts in ur chest or in ur throat, well I can't do this cause I'm still failing my classes, better be good in ur own history. 1 reply
