long ass story short

it's been more than one month since i had a crush on my guy-friend, and anon confessed by letters then he insisted to know who it was, i was in tense cause i wouldn't handle the rejection but mostly i didn't want to lose him as a friend, but hours after coming out of the closet -i mean for him dude no homo xDD- he kindly rejected me for excuses like "ain't good enough for you" "im a terrible guy when it comes to relationships" "i'd rather be-friend you forever than possibly hurt you that way" and so i accepted it leniency -actually i fucking liked him even more lol xD- , but he kept on making me confused and he didn't actually let me move on -saying such things that made my heart go crazy- and i thought this was all wrong since my feelings isn't mutual so i stopped him saying "lets be friends really now" but then that jerk ass started to throw shades after ignoring the hell outta me until now.
idgaf guys, im actually cool with it. thanks for reading.
※ i don't wanna a boy, i don't need a man either *wink*