Did you ever intentionally hurt yourself to have people's attention ?

It may sound very stupid to people, doing this.
I leave with some anxiety about people's attention and interrest. Even with my close friends, I'm always worried if they still like me or they got borred of me. I have a personnality and appearance that want to be known for being different and original.


And I really find pleasure having bruises (little ones, no big cuts)on me when they are asking me why I'm hurt. I find this pleasant because suddenly people or friends have an interrest in me and are worried.

Of course I lie when they ask how I did it. I actually scratched my phalenges (phallanx ?) on concrete the last time until I saw enough little skin removed and blood. Because I liked how it stung and because a ton people were caring about me.