queerbait

I've mostly seen this happen with "yuri" manga and anime. Now, I get really happy when I see realistic wlw and mlm representation, and I love to read to both BL and GL. So it should be pretty normal for me to be excited to see more of it, right? but when the anime/manga actually "starts", I notice that whatever I was getting so hyped up over is just one of the "they're my bestfriend and I'd like to do everything with them!" bullcrap again. I'm not saying that I hate the author(s) or anything, but I'm just tired of getting used to it. Also, It's not rare to see straight romance at all but the heteros always complain how **we** are getting too much representation when it's actually the complete opposite. Well, back to the queerbait topic, I don't wanna get so excited to see wlw/mlm rep only to get disappointed with the "bestfriends" shit again. Also, before anyone hits me with "there literally is a lot of rep?? there's so many english movies out there that-", no. I have tried watching that kinda stuff way too often but I just can't relate to it. I live in an asian household where women are supposed to learn cooking, cleaning, studying, grow up to be become a graceful woman and get married to a man but I genuinely don't want that. I would rather be homeless than live the kind of life where I would be filled with regrets. I get anxiety attacks whenever my parents simply bring up the topic of LGBTQ+. How could y'all expect me to relate to english movies where the MC lives in a perfect white household with a loving family? It's fine if y'all don't agree with me because I just wanted to get this out there.