First kiss

TW: sexual harassment

My question is it right to say I haven't had my first kiss?

So how do y'all define first kiss? Cuz for me it'd be kissing someone whose not your family or parents....but what if it's someone else's parents?....that doesn't count right? It's been always bothering me, I'd always feel complicated and disgusted everytime I was asked if I already had my first kiss...of course I would answer " no " but I know that's not true cuz some fucker did it first when I was fucking five- and that fuckass was my friend's dad! And then my friend came back and the trauma was already done and that asshole said "don't tell anyone about this ha?" And damn it already been 10 years since then and no one not even my parents knows this .

(I mean I already moved on from that since it's been so long but the trauma is still there. I am so fucking scared around men specially older men.)




Sorry if I am not making any sense cuz I'm actually sweating a lot right now hahaha...anyway good night!!