Should I kill myself or my parents?

So my parents stopped checking my phone lately so I kinda got careless and forgot to close the mangago tab and left it open on a begging of a chapter as I sometimes get any to sign in my account again so I just went to sleep and when I woke up and opened the tab again I found out that someone scrolled down to read the chapter and I didn't even get to that part and worse the chapter began with a smut scene AND WORSE IT WAS GAY SMUT I wanted to just die and kill my parents with me I don't even know which parent saw the smut IT COULD BE BOTH they didn't say anything non of them did which made it even more anxious why is it hard to have my own privacy like isn't it too much I can't even chat with my friends feeling comfortable