rant

why do i feel like im the only one in my family who doesn't REALLY miss my mom anymore? she died when i was 7 and now i'm 15 and my dad never married anyone else. yep he's still single, why won't he move on and find someone? my mom gave me this stuffed animal and i still have it and whenever my dad finds it lying around on the floor, he shouts at me saying "take care of it, it was your mom's gift for you!" i feel like a really horrible person because of the fact that i've moved on, i mean, is it wrong that i've moved on? why does my dad treat me so coldly whenever i say "i've moved on"/"i think it's time that YOU move on" ? i think my sister feels the same way too, but then again, we never talk about mom. we can never hold a conversation about mom but otherwise we get along just fine. ahh this feels good, this feeling of getting this off my chest :(