It's the worst feeling ever

I did for so long and it hurt me even more .since I was a child i never felt any type of emotion from them and to them , hell i even
tried to be the one who reaches out and try to help with anything but they never even met me half way like if you didn't want more kids why would you have them and even worse why would you make them feel unseen and unheard and ignore them and not acknowledge how hard they were working to be the "perfect" child with the good grades and the good manners it's so messed up how much they made sure not to give a fuck .it's the worst feeling ..i was angry at them for so long like even made excuses like they must be too busy or they have their hands full with my other siblings but No there's no execuses for neglecting child the way they did and hate it even more that I even tried my best so Fuck it let it all go to waste .