Never gets old and it keeps on piling up

My fear started when my father used to beat me up whenever i did somethng wrong. Then our guard harrassed me (keeps on telling me to sit on his lap. He's very touchy ew) Tf it feels uncomfortable but i was a kid back then feels rude if i ignore him.

It doesmt stop there, guys bullied me when i was in my junior high. Also there will always be a time when guys cat calling me. It also happened several times whenever i ride on a bus someone would touch me in a weird way. There was a time after i immedietly get tf out of there the weird guy followed me and grab ny hand asking for my name and number. His grip was so strong and he wouldnt let me go. I cried and asked for help but no one cared to help me they just all stared at me.

I have summer classes and my seatmate was a guy amd he keeps touching me. I didnt tell anyone coz i was scared of him so i decided to stop going to class. I once asked for help but unfortunately they would mostly tell me its my fault becoz i wasnt able to do anythng.

Now im too scared to like or love a guy ahh im too scarrd to open up to someone they might just cut me off like everyine did. I feel like all guys are all pervert and weird ah sorry

So sorry im not gud in speaking english. Forgive me and thank u for listening

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