Question for the Gen Z

Do you ever feel like numb over everything or you just doesn't feel motivated to do stuff or you're just tired of everything?

Cuz like i've always feel tht way all the time, when my mom scolded me i sometimes tense up but other then tht i'm just numb, the things tht i enjoy didn't even feel fun anymore and now only Genshin is the only thing tht makes me happy don't know why though. What's more surprising is tht when i took a depression test {I was bored at the time and had nothing else to do}, i actually have suicidal thoughts and a severe depression. I was shocked since i've never thought i was feeling tht way, i thought i was just feeling dramatic or being an attention seeker, it's too much information for me to handle tht i have to deny it for a moment and think about it. So here i am asking you guys if you feel the same as i am since i'm uncomfortable telling my family bc i didn't feel relaxed around them.

Sincerely, yourloverfujo.