Rant

I know I’m wrong but I want to get this off my chest. Basically I meet this person on genshin they are literally my best friend even though I only know them for a month. When they put “I want friends plz” in their bio I was jealous, I didn’t want them to replace me. I acted on my emotions and said that’s why you don’t have friends jokingly. I really felt sorry I apologized and told them I was jealous and didn’t want them to replace me. She didn’t comfort me or anything so I was a bit sad. 10 minutes later they started telling me about how they just made a friend group. I am happy but after they started talking to me less. I feel sad actually they are the reason I’m still playing genshin I’m ar55 so I don’t have anything to do. I log in just to talk to them. I want to tell them about my feelings but I’m afraid they won’t comfort me, I don’t want them to apologize for having friends.