Looking for advice

So uh hi guys I am really lonely like so I didnt realise this existed until now please dont delete it mangago gods

Guys I need to know is it bad if I like shotacon? and if is it bad if I liked my dad touching me when Im young? You know he say it was normal to do right? I didnt cry or feel upset so I dont think its bad. ╮(￣▽￣)╭

But I just really wanted to make a friends and this website not blocked and I really feel lonely you know? I live alone now cuz my family abandoned me and so did my foster family so I was abandon by two different families and Im so lonely （/TДT)/

Im not troll I just really want friends guys and if possible shotacon reccomendations you know id never hurt a kid!! i hate seeing kid sad and in shotacon kids arent sad so its relatable cuz i wasnt sad when my dad touched my balls! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧

Pleass dont delete i just want friends.. ╥﹏╥