something you know isnt true but you cant help thinking about?

for me, i dont know why, but since i was a kid, ive always had a black and white image in my head of a fat old man with a beard and glasses sitting on a big chair watching a black and white, slightly grainy, tv. in that tv was human's lives and he was just scrolling thru it like our lives were his entertainment...
man idek i believe we're all gone when we die but this still comes back to me from time to time.