Who is your first anime crush?

Since they won't let me answer the "Who was your first and current fictional character crush" question, I'm just gonna create my own question and answer it.

As a person, I usually indulge myself in fiction as a mean to learn more about my interest and in terms, learn more about myself. Which is why I often don't consider characters as people and strictly see them only as fiction. And because I don't see them as people, I tend not to have any emotional attachments to their personality or the things that they do. Be that as it may, there will be times when a character is able to reach beyond the screen. A character that I so desperately and affectionately admire and desire that they become more than just a character.

The first character to have ever made me feel that way is Haku from Naruto. I fell in love with his unbounded kindness and compassion towards the goodness in his life despite all the evil in it. Honestly, anyone who went through what he went through would have become jaded or worst but not him. He remained pure and uncorrupted by the tragedies in his life. Something that only a person with a very strong heart is capable of which isn't very many people.

I both loved and admired him very deeply because I knew I will never be capable of caring and loving others the way he does had I went through what he went through. He was truly a magnificent character that is larger than life itself. Which was why his death came at such a lost to me. When he died, I felt like I was robbed of something precious. Something so dear that nothing in this world can fill the void he left behind. Even now, as I close my eyes, I can still feel it in my guts. Even though it is nothing more than a distant memory that I once had a long time ago.