how did you feel after finishing banana fish?

i just finished watching banana fish and i just wanna ask one thing, can the gays never win? i feel so broken yall. jesus my pussy ass cried a little when mafuyu sang his song in given but banana fish just hits different. (ik the plots are very different but still yall) ive been crying for the past 15 minutes this aint cute. tell me how you felt after watching this.