little rant

I used to have really severe rosacea during the pandemic and ofc it made me really insecure and all, but it wasn’t to the point where I would do sh. I guess I just wasn’t that “self conscious”. Until after the pandemic when things were clearing up and it was all good to go out in public without a mask, someone “close” to me said that my rosacea was disgusting. My heart shattered. I became self conscious and more insecure than ever to the point that if I ever saw a reflection or a picture of myself I would cry and if there was chance I would ___. I wanted to peel my skin off, and if anyone even glanced or smiled at me I would have a Mental breakdown (I felt like they were judging my appearance),all I wanted to do was run and hide. It didn’t help that my hair was thin and falling. I had to shave my head and wear a wig. Ofc ppls little comments about their insecurities would just add more to mine. Things I didn’t even know could be insecurities.
- There’s more but I don’t want it to be any longer