Looking for a BL manga

Ok so a while back i was reading a manga about these three childhood best friends. Two boys and one girl. The girl had a short bob and the one who went missing had short black hair and the other had this sort of short blonde/cream colored hair. So they were all close from what i remember and were going to go to college together but i think one went missing? The cream haired boy and the girl started dating afterwards. After he went missing, the cream colored hair one went to like a high school reunion and the friend that went missing showed up and I think he kissed him. He was apart of the mafia or something now i think he basically was selling his body to i guess his boss to get maybe higher up? If i remember correctly that might be wrong tho. And there was a lot of tw rape in the manga especially with the black haired one. I think the cover was the cream hair colored boy holding the black haired one. I’ve been looking for it for ages now but it seems like it wasnt that popular. I provided as much information as a i remember but it might ring a bell.