Attention Pls (need advice)

Hi bruhhs, so I'm here seeking prolly (love) advice from a manga porn site... EheM... Bruhh I'm going to die literally out of stress and mental damage if y'all don't mind ಡ  ʖ ಡ.

So our grad prom is comming next month and cotillion practices is starting and I'm literally paired to a random guy from the other class, I honestly never knew how he looked like or if he even exists, from what I've heard from my classmates, we had similar things such a cycling, and very tall (which is prolly why the teacher paired us....

So our first day of practice began and HE WAS ABSENT. Which I got to practice with a diff dude who sucked at dancing and keep stepping on my feet...

2nd day of practice and my paired partner finally showed up, i was like he was ok, he looks ok and dances normal and his hands were smooth unlike other dudes, and he was a fast learner... ngl I actually enjoyed dancing with him..

3rd day, I was absent for academic reasons, and the teacher replaced me with another lesbian girl, which I panicked that I was literally kicked out of the cotillion.

I begged the teacher as I always wanted to experience this kind of things during my final year in highschool. luckily, my friends helped me look for a different partner who was literally worse than the first dude, and bruhh he was soaked in sweat and smelled sweaty.

I honestly joined again hoping to switch again to my partner, but the teacher scolded me for being absent.

While dancing with my "New" partner, it was not enjoyable for me, I kept looking at my original partner now my expartner ༎‿༎...

and bruh I went as far as to literally stalk him, sent a friend request and express it on a manga porn site.... Like omg I really want to dance with him again, but I guess I won't even smooth hands again...

UGHHH! I really want to rip out my hair out, I should've set aside my tasks and should've showed up....

Dear girlie friends, what the heck should I do now, I literally pray to dance with him again