am i just bi or sexualizing?

so i (a woman) am straight. I like men and I've only been in love with men. just like the other, I do what a straight person do & I like it too. idk why but sometimes I really want to fuck a woman. like when i read a straight smut manhwa/manga, I have a feeling of wanting to fuck HER too not the other way around (as in i'm the one being fucked). but thats it. I don't even read gl (only a few). I've never been in love with a woman and Idk if I'll ever be in love with one. what that makes me? cause I've been so concerned about this for a while now.

ps. please don't bully me lol. I'm just saying this rn but I think I'm going to regret posting this (￣∇￣")