Fuck this shit

I don't know any mature response to this. I value my friends so much but I pick the people that I want to form a bond with. There are people who said that I have a dominant personality cos I cary myself with confidence and don't let any person walk over me.

But because of that, I had a hard time forming genuine platonic friendship with male friends. You know what other people say, that women have strong instincts to shift of behaviors and possibilities. But when we were in 3rd yr, I got into a cirlce of friend that are very casual with each other and they were 2 men and 3 women. One of the men that belong to this group became close with me cos he seems chill and mature and we often talk about the topics we learned from our discussions.

Then, I have this acquaintance that I don't really define as my friend said to me that this male friend of mine was giving signs that he might have feelings to me. I FUCKING HATE THAT INFORMATION COS AFTER THAT I STARTED TO DISTANCE MYSELF COS I BECAME SO AWARE OF HIS SUBTLE BODY LANGUAGE! Even though he didn't directly confessed his feelings, but since then, that information strained how I view him and our friendship. Now what?????