How do i love myself more

Though Im not saying this that im that depressed but I often find it hard to fully believe one's compliment or yet if theyre words really means so much or js yet my existence to them. I sometimes fully believe and yet the other back of my mind says that it wont last also or yet theyre just saying that. I do believe but yet somehow overthink about it. I think of myself as pretty but times I also think that Im ugly. I think of myself as a good person but yet I also am not. I say people do like me but the other says that they js do hate me though i thought of it less now but yet I still do think about it.

My partner is drained because of the negatively way I think about myself due to my reposts that he saw which I know that it was my fault and that he wants someone to love themselves before another person (he wants a break bc of this (╥﹏╥) ) but its hard to fully change my thoughts about myself for just a few days because for the past few years back then of being fully judged and being insecure which is haunting me.

I cant hangout with anyone since they are fully busy but I also yet cant go outside knowing that sometimes I have to take care of my brother or yet just have nothing to do outside or yet buy things. I wanna change so bad because Im hurting people around me which thats something I really dont wanna do..