I used to have sex with my brother

I used to have sex with my brother we where 4-5 ofc I was 4 he was 5 and he whould hump on me and force it inside and I grew to like it? Not really I forced myself to like it and after that I got touched by s bunch of old men and I never told anyone, conviently I had a scar in my inner upper thigh Wich from when I fell after waking up and running away so the blood could be excused but I still try to forget what my brother did to me anyways my parents are bitch's literally fought with me because I didn't want to yap to them about school like shut the fuck up leave me alone please