I JS readed the litc spoilors mental health is detoriating

After reading the litc spoilors for chp 117 I don't feel like iw as ever the same at all I feel mentally physically exhausted and unwell I feel feverish it's all so bad Im shocked devastated in denial I can't do this anymore stop it already why does the author keeps doing this I can't do it anymore I feel waves of happiness the next thent a sucker punch of sorrow the other what am I supposed to do know? I can't do this anymore I'm not fine no one's fine I knew I shouldn't have readed the spoilors yet I did I have no one else to blame but me wym cirrus punches Skylar?? I can't do this anymore I really can't my mental health is detoriating every read I intake