I've always wanted to wear suits

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I'm just going to vent here. Feel free to read or to skip this story ^^

My father grew up as a devout christian or a follower of jesus. But I am not the same as him, as I know our religion is nothing but a lie and a cult. But until I find myself out of their doors, I would have to play with their religion.

Anyways, he thinks traditionally when it comes to attires of women and men. Our church partially mandates the attires of women to be dresses and attires of men to be some type of suits. I HATE wearing dresses as I am a lesbian comfortable in more masculine clothing. But I never get to do that as my mother will also police me to wear appropriate clothing for church.

Whenever I go to church, there are women who will go to church in a men's suit, which happens very RARELY. Whenever I see that it happens, I couldn't take my eyes off them. I feel happiness, but also envy, as I want to also do that but I have no freedom to.

Wearing a suit became a thought of rebellion for me.

I hope this thought becomes a reality and I can finally escape that church.