i want my best friend so bad

i am homoerotically hopelessly sappily inlove with my best friend

i have a crush on her for 4 years now and it's so bad. It was valentines and i gave her her fav chocolate and like she gave me a fucking banana in exchange but that's so loveable about her. She gained a new friend like just this week and they're already so close it kind of pisses me off bc i am hopeless and in no point of return i kiss her on the cheek as a joke BUT IT WAS NEVER A JOKE!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!! i go to her house often (like twice a week and i sleep over there alot) and im close to her family to the point that i get invited in their familial occasions. a bunch of her clothes are in my house and a bunch of mine are in hers. i even know her phone password and she lets me play stupid subway surfers. i treat her everytime we go out even if im broke. im thinking of getting a job at this café we frequently go into... i even serenaded her and everyone thinks were dating but shes so dense FUCKKKKKKK IM SO HOPELESS chat am i cooked