Am i weird for thinking like this

when i watch something which is like, classic 2010s queerbait, i want to read fanfiction of it because obviously. but when i watch shows/movies that were actually queer, it feels kind of disrespectful to the original storyline to just be reading fanfics where they kiss because like- that already happened in the show, I'm satisfied with what the show gave me.

there's so many more fandoms i could be reading ao3 ffs of but I don't because of feeling like this and i just want to be able to read more fanfiction idk