Is it normal?

Is it normal to feel despressed and wanting to die when your family acts like this? Like when I ran away from home to my bestfriend house,my parents got me home and talk about how they will never restrict me from hanging out with my friends outside or how my father won't pressure me into seperate studying for a govt job while I am still in college, my brother is someone who angry at me whenever I fight with my parents, after a few days of silence in the house, then the history repeats again but this time it got worse because I keep getting angry ,despressed and cry and now I am enemy with all three of them. It's so sad that my family won't care to help me with this and wtf is wrong with me.just wish I died. But aside from this how can I stop being emotionally attached to my family and how can I just not feel bad when they ignore me when I wish to speak with them. Even my fake friends notice it but they won't. My mom says that we are bestfriend when she is the type of person to ignore someone that she clearly knew they love her. I just want to be de-attached from my mom. Tell me how can I be emotionally stable. I am getting lectured from both in college and home on how I should be shameful that I ran away home and how I should know that my parents just afraid that something must happen to me that why they never let me outside anywhere. Like, so it's okay fro them to shelter me from the world then how the hell am I supposed to survive? Like my mind is messed up. There's a lot more I want to say but this is already too much. Thank you for listening