Been happy but also envious of a friend's achievements

Like, tell me if this is normal and y'all have also experienced it?? I'm super happy for my friend that they're finally getting more popular in their craft but at the same time I'm like ugh I should've been more consistent I wish I was her yk?? Idk like, I'm not jealous in the hateful ugly way as per say, ig I'm more of disappointed at myself for allowing myself to get left behind