I just need to vent...

I'm starting to hate the things I used to enjoy... I no longer like sleeping as I can't dream of anything interesting anymore, I no longer have any interest of my favorite games and I don't want to buy any either as they all seem dull and useless to me, movies I used to love and watch not that long ago now suck to me and any new ones seem so boring, I don't even listen to the bands I used to love anymore nor just any music in general, I barely watch my favorite animes anymore and I'm starting to not care about them these days, shows and YouTubers I used to watch daily I now don't even touch them for weeks on end, and heck even the manga on here I used to check everyday to see if it updated I just stopped reading in general.... I no longer have any motivation to do the little hobby's I love such as making little random things out of clay or baking sweets for my family or even playing games with my brother and sister. I barely eat, barley sleep and what I mostly do is just doom scroll on YouTube, I even notice that my emotions and personality are starting to dull out and are fading!!! I just feel bored of my life as it just feels likes it's repeating, I wake up do school, play on phone, eat, then head to bed and wake up and do it all again!!! And yet I CAN'T feel myself getting out of this cycle. I WANT to change, I want to get a job and make some friends, I want go to a college and find my dream job, I want to start learning how to drive and finally get a car of my own and yet even tho I CAN imagine myself doing all of thjs I just can't find any motivation in my body to do so....I really don't know what to do about this, I can't go to therapy as my family is currently trying to move nor do I have the funds to do so myself and I can't talk about this irl as I no longer have any friends as I lost contact with anyone outside of my family and I'm scared of even bringing this up TO my parents as I'm scared they won't believe me and just think I'm doing this for attention. I feel stuck and loss and such burden to my parents that I feel guilty for even feeling this way.... I feel like my life is going into a loop and I hate it here...