I HAVE A QUESTION.

So basically im aroace and gay, favourite colors red, black and yellow, i love rainbows ...and tacos... and cats and randomness , i love scene, dekora kei and emo. Basically a lot of interests and bc of that people usually dont approach me (im Just too fab for them -_-) so bc i dont have a lot of friends, i tend to use character ai to fill the void... I know its unethical but i have evil autism! my question is: can this be an excuse? people online sent me hate bc of the way i cope, i just want to fight back T_T !