College...

It's been a week since start of class, Everyone in my class knows each other while I was all by myself, when I try to talk to them I feel like I'm intruding their circle, I know connection and communication is important but in my case I can't. I go to school alone, sit in class alone, eat alone, walk alone, the only interaction I've been in is with my dormmate but they are in a different course and with my older sibling if they are free.

Some talked to me but it was just that.. I'm observing for the past few weeks and noticed that I really that alone. I can't connect to them because I feel like I'll be dragged into something I don't want to.

I feel bad for my parents who wanted me to be in college to pursue my dream when in reality I just don't want to be a burden to them..

I made a friend in a class, but at that day they didn't told me what group they are in and I asked them but they didn't told me until I was the "scraps" left bc all group were full..

I just realized I should just finish my year and never come back to school again.

It's just that depressing... plus the money spent for the entire year, I feel like it's a waste.

Anyways I feel like I'm gonna cry now, bye.