To do or not to do

I just want others opinions on this. Or else I might just do what my intrusive thoughts tell me to do.

So like, I used to do sh for like 3 years maybe. And last year, I wanted to go clean. I did. I stopped doing sh for 1 year or so but recently, in last few months, I went back to it again. Now I am contemplating whether I should stop it again or not. The reason I am contemplating is that since I have continued sh again, I should try new ways of doing it, like for experimental and curiosity reasons. (I blame Poppy war for this).