How do you flick your beans?

I've heard this a lot and ik the beans is clitoris right? I searched it up and saw the diagram but still couldn't get exactly where it's supposed to be in your pussy. Masturbation is a taboo topic in my country and in my family. But i hope Allah can forgive me for asking this here but i really want to experience how it feels like Does it feel good? I've noticed my underwear gets wet with a white substance whenever i get turned on while reading yaoi smut. But girl that's it. Is it supposed to feel extra good when i flick my beans aka clitoris? But I don't even know where is it in my pussy and don't tell me i have to insert fingers to flick my beans cause that's something I can't do cause first of all i am scared and second my hymen might break if i do so and then they'll say i am not a virgin anymore if I don't bleed on my first night yeah sucks to be me I know But i really want to flick my beans lmao please help girlies.