Am I lesbian?

So I've always been romantically and sexually attracted to women but, when it comes to guys I'd never let him touch me with a ten foot pole but I'm ATTRACTED TO them.
Generally, I can't touch men, I don't feel anything when they touch me but, if I'm in love with one I feel tingly even just touching their arm.
On the other hand, if it's a girl I'm WAY less awkward and way easier, like she can touch me any way she likes and I'll love it.
I don't know I've been so confused recently.