Just kill me alrd

How to not be an avoidant bitch and actually have connection with people and not always be left out of everythings and always be the last choice and actually like I always had friends at school but never at the same time like my « friends « litch all have someone over me and idk i’m just so bad and i know that i gotta kms at some point everythings getting so freaking bad and i hate it . Lemme just Die already our World so desgusting anw