Need help finding

I’m trying to find this one yaoi manga. It’s one of those few chapter mangas. PS It’s little dark and graphic. I can’t remember if it was omegaverse or not but the mc was saving his virginity for his lover but was suddenly r*ped. He came back to his lover trying to hide all the wounds and bruises under his shirt but when the lover found out, he broke down. They tried to do the deed but the mc was so traumatized and kept reminiscing that he broke down mid sex, that happened for maybe 2 tries? Eventually he came thru bc he really wanted to do it with the person he loved.