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I'm too old to be saying this but I feel like I should just say it, so I want advice like just for mental health, bc lately mine has gone so so so so shit to the point I keep having random breakdowns and it genuinely makes me feel like shit, I feel weak and I just don't feel like myself, I feel disgusted with myself bc of these feelings, and not only that I did recently get diagnosed with bipolar syndrome but still idk it just makes me feel like I've done nothing but be a burden and honestly I normally don't do this type of stuff but it's gone to a breaking point where I'm genuinely seeking out advice bc my fucking psychiatrist did nothing and overall with the stress and workload I have it just feels like everything is weighing down on me, on top of all that I have personal family issues that just pisses me off even more when I think about it, so genuinely please give me some advice, thank u