Guys weird question (⁠＠⁠_⁠＠⁠;⁠)

Is it weird to miss someone who left you bcz they think you're not good for them (saying you deserve to be with someone better) yk bcz they don't want their mental health to affect you bcz they don't even know how to manage it (and they can't express their feelings properly)

Because I, a local lesbian(is this information needed... idk) who doesn't even know is she likes girls or if she just like a girl, got broken up with a few months ago (it's been 80+ days now) and I still can't move on because I felt like forgetting the person I truly wanted to be with for the rest of my life just leaving me without asking for my opinion on and and just just jumping into conclusions that I'm sad with them instead of asking when I always reassure them that they're someone really important to me...

Yeah I just need some other opinions from others because I'm genuinely going inside crying everyday not exaggerated bcz I really do cry everyday bcz I miss that someone (-_-)hahahaha;;;

I want to chase after her even after she just dropped the bomb in a random day because she tried to find any flaw that can make her hate me(she twist everyones words even if they don't mean any harm so yeah she said this herself so don't jump me pls) but she couldn't because whatever I do she can never hate me for anything ...she hates everyone with a burning passion so I don't know why she fell in love with me too so hehehe yeah I'm still madly in love with this person I know I'm genuinely insane

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Wait why am I still typing... Tbh I can yap more than this but I'm half asleep rn (I haven't slept for days) so after crying I decided to type this and after I hit post ima sleep peacefully like I ain't going to sleep with a heavy heart and wake up with a pit in my stomach hahahaha wth (◍•ᴗ•◍)