Do any of you feel this?

When you have a deeply rooted inferiority complex so you try to be very defensive by putting up a superiority complex instead. Like you feel invaluable deep down but on the exterior you make it seem like you're the most valuable or that others are invaluable compared to you, you try to make yourself *feel* superior by skills, appearance or wellbeing so you feel validated. you try so so hard to appear better off than other people to fill in your emptiness. You seek constant validation from people you deem "valuable" (might be physical appearance, public popularity, skills, lifestyle, well being etc) and when one of your friend is "valuable" you feel inferior. You feel the need to distance yourself so they come after you and the more they come after you the more your ego feels satisfied. Because "oh...a valuable person is desperately coming after me" so when you distance yourself and be cold to a certain limit they move on and that gives you a critical hit. They will keep going forward, but you're forever stuck in your delusions and cowardice. I always found myself trying to get validation from men because I deemed them powerful in society, I felt disgusting because I'm a huge misandrist but I realized it wasn't about men but valuable people.
I just realized this and I feel so empty I don't know what to do