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Crying infront of people
I hate being vulnerable. I hate feeling pitied. I hate when I cry infront of people and then they ask me "hey... how are you doing now?" every week with that voice like I'm a wounded puppy. It makes me wanna punch a wall. Even if I still feel like shit now I feel like I have something to prove. Like no, I've never been better ACTUALLY. It sucks cause I know they're just worried too.
It's not like I wasn't allowed to express my emotions when I was a kid so I don't know why I'm like this. Anyone else feel so strongly about this?
Dude, about 2 weeks ago I started uncontrollably crying right in the middle of a workshop and I was SO FUCKING EMBARASSED. Because my work was the one being workshopped and ppl had a lot of critiques so it looked like I was crying because of the critiques BUT I SWEAR IT WASN'T, IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS SO RUDE TO EVERYONE THAT DAY AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHY...... 1 reply