Crying infront of people

I hate being vulnerable. I hate feeling pitied. I hate when I cry infront of people and then they ask me "hey... how are you doing now?" every week with that voice like I'm a wounded puppy. It makes me wanna punch a wall. Even if I still feel like shit now I feel like I have something to prove. Like no, I've never been better ACTUALLY. It sucks cause I know they're just worried too.

It's not like I wasn't allowed to express my emotions when I was a kid so I don't know why I'm like this. Anyone else feel so strongly about this?