I don't know y I feel this way when it comes to friends. I get increasingly jealous when they're around new people, well I'm lying, I do know y I feel this way and it's because I know I'm replaceable and hard to talk to. I make conversations so awkward when it comes to new people that join in on me and my friends conversations. I don't know but I feel weird when I try to like, think about it. I hate overthinking things, like thinking over and over about something and what could happen if they keep talking and then moving on from me. I'm just ranting because I have no one to talk to. I'm not looking for advice I guess? It's fine if u do have advice or know y I feel this way on a more deeper scale? If that makes sense idk, or if u relate to this. Yes I'm ranting on a yaoi site because I literally have no one else to talk to without making myself sound stupid or embarrassing.
nah im with u 100%, i feel like this abt my friends asw and it drives me insane sm like why am i so insecure about my friendships. i also overthink so many little interactions and it ends up overwhelming me at times. I think it's cos we're just seeking this validation that we're other people's first options bc we've never felt secure in our relationships before and we're not confident in our own personalities asw, sth like that and low self-esteem probably :/// im hoping i'll just one day learn that happiness needs to be achieved from within and not from others, knowing that versus living it is different tho
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Relatable, I just want my OWN bestfriend yk? Not the fakes ones who will still talk to the ppl who hurt me, just for "keeping the peace"..
nah im with u 100%, i feel like this abt my friends asw and it drives me insane sm like why am i so insecure about my friendships. i also overthink so many little interactions and it ends up overwhelming me at times. I think it's cos we're just seeking this validation that we're other people's first options bc we've never felt secure in our relationships before and we're not confident in our own personalities asw, sth like that and low self-esteem probably :/// im hoping i'll just one day learn that happiness needs to be achieved from within and not from others, knowing that versus living it is different tho